Success is hard.

Dear future self,


Now that you're living a nice successful life (I hope), do you remember the struggles you've overcome to get to where you are now? Do you remember all the impossible goals you've tried to achieve? And, do you remember the disappointment you've felt when you don't reach those goals?

I'm here to tell you that success is such a hard thing to be good at and to achieve.

Since I'm still at school, my kind of success is getting straight excellence, which is the highest grade at my high school.

It's so hard to do that since you have your strengths and weaknesses when it comes to subjects and no matter how hard you study, sometimes the results aren't always good.

I've learnt that the hard way.

Every time I get a Merit (second highest grade), I feel so upset and really angry because a) I've worked my butt off for the test b) I think I've done the best I could and therefore should be rewarded for it. But it doesn't work like that.

In life, it's a mixture of good and bad, and sometimes you just have to endure the bad so you can enjoy the goods.

Although I tell myself that it's okay to get a merit because it's not such a low score, it makes me more angry as  I've trained myself to always get excellence every time.

Anyway, now that I've actually thought about this and understand that success is not a straight path but a path with lots of turns, I have a clear mind of where I'm going to set myself.

So, remember future self, success is possible but you can't always get it because life is unfair and even if you think you deserve success, you need to get over it if you don't get it and work harder next time.


Yours sincerely,
       your future self